Sunday, March 20, 2016
Thank you to everyone! Yes, I'm feeling much better.
Two, I can't have the curtains open when it's dark because that's when zombies look in your windows and surround the house before breaking in. (I have a deal with my friends that they will keep me alive through the fighting parts, and I will keep them alive with my science-y skills afterwards.)
And three, I cry at everything. I cry at Hallmark card commercials, I cried at the end of Terminator 2. I cried at the beginning of Up where they show the short video of the husband and wife together, but then again, you have to be a heartless non-romantic not to weep at that. (That's Raymond's future! I told him he needs to befriend a cute little boy scout soon so he can have a companion! He already has a talking dog.) I cry when I hear songs that remind me of my dad, mom, husband, best friend, dog, and so on. And we're talking thrash metal songs, not some sad folk song.
So when I tell you that this week has had me crying with your kind words and thoughts, you know it's because I'm a wet soppy mess who cries when she's happy. Thank you so much for your kindess. Thank you so much for all your lovely thoughts and sentiments.
Windy Point Soap. Aren't they gorgeous? Such a sunny addition to my house. I love the yellow, the flowers, the vase. She sent them to me because of my no good, rotten, horrible week, and it turned everything around.
Last weekend, I mentioned to the lovely Doreen, of Blue Lotus Soaps, that I had a co-worker who was seeking a special soap. She's already made it and shipped it out from the Maritimes for me. She shared her stories and experiences doing my kind of work - my day job - and it was just what I needed to realize that I have been living in a slightly darker space than I want.
My friends, Kathleen, Ann, and Wanda all came to the rescue to listen to my endless whining, and all three helped me pick myself up and realize what I can do, instead of concentrating on what I can't.
My mom and Raymond have been amazing, holding me when I cry, telling me how great things can be, and bringing me cookies when I clap my hands and yell...no wait, they hate it when I do that!
I realized that there are people who care about me whom I haven't met yet, like you, my wonderful readers, and so many people in my life at home and work who care about me. I have to be okay with being weak for a while and lean on them when I can't hold myself up. I have to reach out for help before I crash and burn, and I have to look to the positive things that get me through the day instead of the negative ones that can pull me down. I'm usually such an optimist, but struggling with this intense pain since last year has altered that world view slightly. But I'm committed to being positive and seeing the best in people and things!
So many epiphanies from a beautiful bouquet of flowers and some unscented soap, eh? Just shows you how important a small gesture, a kind word, and a loving act can be in a life!
In answer to your questions, yes, I'm feeling way better. Those epidurals have been a miracle in liquid form. I haven't felt this good in years. I'm down to over the counter pain medication and only before bed. I can sit up, walk around, stand in one place for ages, and spend time with the people I love. I'm dying to get to the gym, but I'm scared of hurting myself and having this feeling go away, but I'm hoping to go on Monday and do some light weights! And I played Rock Band all day with my bestie. Sure, everyone else's ears hurt, but we had a great time. (And man, can she do harmonies! So jealous of her awesomeness!)
I'm so happy, and I can't say enough about the magical powers of spinal injections! (Oh yes, it hurts like hell, but only for 30 seconds, then it's bliss!)
Yeah, I know this picture is of Kirk van Houton trying to draw dignity, but I can't really think of a picture to describe self-improvement that isn't some kind of cheesy motivational poster. So you're stuck with Kirk!
I have been making some plans for what I want to do next, and I hope you're interesting in seeing what that might be! The blog is a huge part of it, but I hope to make it bigger and better! I don't want to say much until I know it'll all work - my dad taught me to be a doer, not a big talker - but there is definitely a new e-book on the horizon (maybe two), which makes me so happy!
Thanks again for all your lovely thoughts. You have no idea how much they mean to me, and how amazing and kind you have been to me, lovely readers.
Join me tomorrow as we start wading through the comments and messages I've received over the past three weeks! There's a bunch!